Sunday service last Sunday, what Rev. Anthony (the preacher) said was really opened my eyes and my heart. He said something from the Bible, it's from II Corinthians 5:4
"For we that are in this tabernacle do groan, being burdened: not for that we would be unclothed, but clothed upon, that mortality might be swallowed up of life."
That's why I found it hard to be a new man (woman for me) in Christ. Because I'm still wearing that old and stink clothes for years! And yesterday I've tried to take it off. It's hard to do it. Still fighting 'til now. The evil try many ways to make me wear it again, in the ways of making me upset about small stuff, made me feel not peace, yeah…about everything in my life.. my parents, my siblings, my relatives, my students (& work stuff), and myself..
But, thank God, He has sent us the Holy Spirit. He reminded me every time I felt not peace or upset about something. "Why do you have to act that way? Is it what a Christian do when they face a problem? Mad at people? Shouldn't we bring peace to people? It's not a big thing, don't have to over react.." Yea.. God… The Holy Spirit really said that to me.. And I said to myself "God.. why should I mad? Yea.. it's just small stuff, don't have to sweat that much.. I'm so sorry God.." And I realized that was the evil temptation.. he was about to make me wear that old & stink clothes again..
Well, those things really happened to me these weeks, many things came up & they seem to make me feel down, tried to make me over sensitive, forcing down my pride, made me feel like I'm not the blessed one, I'm useless, I'm nothing, Loser…. Bla bla..
I always pray like this to God since the beginning of this year : "God, I believe You have something for me. You want me to do something. Something big (in God's eyes). Like David said to You , I want to say the same thing : "Examine me, O LORD, and prove me; try my reins and my heart.
" For I will do what You want me to do, and I want to do it in Your way, not my way. I want You to made me as the potter made the vessel from the clay." (Jeremiah 18:4-6). I don't know from where in the world I dare to say these words, but I feel A VERY STRONG SPIRIT inside me that made me said that.. So now, no matter what people do, no matter what people say to insult me, no matter how bad they do to me, I will stand still and ask God to give me the power to move on His work in me.
And at the same day (that Sunday service), God has spoken to me (It's so real as I cry while I read this) :
Isaiah 43 : 19 "Behold, I will do a new thing ; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert."
Like there's always the rainbow after the rain, we'll always know that it's His covenant for His promises to us.
Thank you Rev. Anthony, you've been such a blessing to me.
God bless you all my friends!
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