Today i just found something that convinced me with that title. I met a guy who used to become quite special person for me. Honestly, I dunno why it ended up like this.. I dont even talk to him as a friend, just friend.. then i realized why its so hard to become just friend with him.. Everything i do that connected to him only makes me hurt some more..
I fell down at the same place, over and over again. I was so stupid.. Always said in my heart, "Okay, this is the last chance, if everything screwed up, i hv to forget him".. But that thing happened many times. The simple answer is, maybe he's just not the one for me. And too bad, it has ended, in a very awkward way.. Deep inside my heart, i dont wanna be like this, like now. We act like we've never been close friend before. I am really dissapointed about the way he act. Hmm..cant expect too much either..
Well, i tried to think positive, maybe he's not a coward at all. Maybe for him there are things which better left unsaid. Yeah.. maybe thats the answer.. But I really wish he got some good explanation for what he is doing now. Wish he can explain to me and clear everything up..
But the most important thing, it's all has ended. Every little things he had done for me, i really appreciate it, maybe i havent told him directly. Well i tried to say it here,
"Thank you for being a little part of my life, but that little part has helped me to grown up, and i learned so much from you. You are the first guy who can make me cry so many tears for a simple crush. A little crush which has been burdened for more than 2 years, finally i can let it all out here.
I'm wishin u all da best, live ur life to the fullest. And keep your faith in Him. God bless u.."
Well, i think i am wiser now (hopefully), and wont do stupid things again. I wont let my feelings go leading the way. I will wait until God says to me "he's the one", then i go for it. Otherwise, it will only hurt myself..
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