Nothing To Lose

I’ve always prayed if this feeling is not from God, then please just take it away from me, Lord. As we pray together, I got strength & promise from God that He can change everything in just a wink. Two persons told me to give up this courtship, but I don’t know why I’m still holding on ‘til now. No matter my lack of knowing what’s on his mind or who’s in his heart, I do still care about him. My heart can only see him. Still…

I knew I’m not supposed to invest too much feeling on it. Well I guess I don’t, but deep inside my heart I can’t deny that he’s still the man I love. I don’t care if people say I’m a fool. I wrote this not in the purpose of getting to him. I just want to express that what I have for him is sincere, doesn’t matter what will happen. Above all my hopes & dreams, I just want him to be happy & get the best of life. I just never thought it will become complicated like this. Anyway, I do let him go, if he really meant to be mine, then he’ll come back to me & belongs to me forever, but if it’s not, then its not meant to be. I’m still holding to that. Nothing to lose.

“I just want a simple love. I’m not looking for someone perfect. I just want to love someone imperfect in a perfect way of loving, to love until my very last breath.”